… second time arounds (day 120)

DAY 1. 
DAY 7. 
DAY 14. 
DAY 16. 
DAY 21. 
DAY 28. 
DAY 41. & DAY 60. 
DAY 65.
DAY 66.

DAY 120: Mr December and I passed The End long before the 3rd month, but when it’s so hard to accept reality one tries to fall back onto old habits and past actions. [That’s when we try to grab on that crumbling last rock but we realise it’s too shaky to save us.]

Whilst I wanted to have you
You just wanted to get me.
Know that you did
and me being there
Was enough to maybe start something, but
The retention not so clear.

But So What when
You may as well, give me a better reason,
For a second time round,
I’m still waiting to plan

To sit
To not forget.

But laziness is effing easy
Cowardly even,
My person a little harder.

Still make your choice:
Either lift me and carry me into the ocean

Or Stop

The wasted remarks without the backbone to follow through.

I thought it was a good thing
Still think you could bring me around to a good place,
To your place.
Not Fix, but be my valium.

There lingers some emotion,
Where I saw that depth in both our eyes
Too unfortunate not to pursue its formation,

Do nothing as
Maybe it’s not in your fortune.

As the reality of your voice is so unreal now,
My playlist only replaying your songs now.

Miss Mess



About iheartmess

A Middle Eastern Londoner 20-something living the 'western' life in between London and home.
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