DAY 230: After all the ups and downs, the inevitable: end and aftermath. Saying Goodbye without saying anything. [Once you make that decision it isn’t as hard as you thought, you can always rely on asshole behaviour to give you that motivation you never thought you had].
In other words, you basically told me to go #@$! myself
To relieve my boredom, to of course, stop obsessing over you.
Its shockingly hilarious
But you have a right to do as you wish
And what you wished
Left me fuming and rejected in one instant.
And it was a fleeting sensation consuming my entire body
The tingling of it brought tears to me eyes
The idea of it
made me want to whimper in a corner,
brought back my swagger
as your oblivious arrogance
Shocked my senses into the reality of your failure.
and you failed every time I tried..
I thought I could give you time to realise you wanted this
I thought it best to not change you or make you want to give me what I wanted
Regardless it’s time now
Accepting what’s on offer will never make me happy.
Moving on, Letting go
Saying nothing from now on.