When it’s this real it never fades

This is why I don’t wanna love u:

I don’t want to get upset at your habits.
I don’t want to think about how what I say has any correlation to our past.
I don’t want to want to be your priority.
I don’t want my face to light up when I see you.
I don’t want to sit here knowing you want me but won’t show anything.

And yet I hated not hearing from you,
I hated not having you pretend in front of others I’m not your priority,
I hated not being able send you words that would leave you shivering,
I don’t like to love you with nothing in return.

You think this is it.
We fall for someone and oh, well, whatever. That’s it.
Nothing to be done about – if this is The Person, it won’t be your choosing.

Maybe that’s all it is for you, an attraction of lips and embraces

Hours of silent conversations that never started.

You don’t know what my heart does to me because of you.
When it’s this real, it never fades.

Miss Mess

xoxo