Is there something I’m doing wrong? Is there something I should be doing differently? For the life me I can’t understand why you don’t try to plan to see me on Fridays. Why not tell me to join you in whatever you decide to do. Instead you boldly joked that Friday’s are boys night. And I’m here thinking, since the Sunday I left you, that all I want is to see you on Friday and Saturday and again on Sunday. Every day of the week really. It was that fucking simple for me. How upsetting that it wasn’t for you.
And who wants to make you feel it? Or have to remind you to want it? Who wants crumbs of attention pieced together sometimes 3 drinks in, on a boys night, sometimes present on date night?
How painful that was. Wanting closeness and intimacy with the guy you are feeling all these feelings for, and he straight up wants to avoid it. Avoid you. Picks a day to screen you. Tells it to your face too.
The wrong love is, shit, I tell you.