Author Archives: iheartmess

About iheartmess

A Middle Eastern Londoner 20-something living the 'western' life in between London and home.

karma – the heart that keeps breaking

wow. that just broke my heart. i was gearing up the courage to ask you, to ask me out on a date this weekend. i wanted to dress up, look cute for you. I was making plans to spend the … Continue reading

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As if my heart couldn’t break

Throughout our relationship, although I had my selfish moments, I stopped acting on what it was that I truthfully wanted. Who I wanted to be with. Where I wanted to go. What I wanted to do. I was constantly worried … Continue reading

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I told my boyfriend I had met someone..

I didn’t think I would cry over him. I didn’t think my tears would fall across my face. Splatter and spread like my heart did. Not then, three weeks after the first time I said it and not now, one month after breaking … Continue reading

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Isn’t it?

“So. She didn’t want to be with me. Isn’t it?” “It’s not that she didn’t want to be with you. She was waiting for you.” “Waiting for me? She was with someone after me. How could she wait for me? … Continue reading

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Is there an app for that?

Has anyone ever had one person in their life they loved but couldn’t be with because of traditional society, and at the same time had another person who was so perfect on paper but who was taking things so, slow. Well I … Continue reading

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Wish I could make you whole.

He’s the one who made me feel so comfortable. Made me feel like he’ll always be there. Made me feel confident enough to say anything, at any time. Made me feel whole. But, he never felt whole. He always felt I’d … Continue reading

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Here’s a reminder 

Less than a week ago, I had lunch with my ex and his new wife. The one I cried over for months and months, the one I imagined I could tear down walls for, the one I thought understood me … Continue reading

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