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Steps of Kindness

I wish you an abundance of energy, tranquility, love and real kindness. I truly hope you can live your life the way you want to. With achievement and stability and inner compassion. Thanks for teaching me more about myself. The … Continue reading

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While he was in London

He whatsapped me a picture. I clicked and stared at it for a few seconds. It was a picture of him with a vitamin drip in his right arm, half his face cut off by the frame. It hurt, looking … Continue reading

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Feel Something

On the 4th Sunday, in my empty bed, I hurt myself. I lay there, feeling drained and overpowered by a beating in my head. I was flooded by an urgent need to make myself see things, things that my eyes … Continue reading

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Protect Your Heart

For my Sunday workouts, when I lived down in LA, I used to hike this popular path going up a steep canyon. The hike itself was a joy and the views up were beautiful. Walking towards the park entrance, there … Continue reading

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Five steps of heartbreak

1. Clarity – I left yoga feeling so clear about breaking up with you. About the decision I finally made. What I should do. The words I should use. Finally clear about what I needed and how unaligned we were. … Continue reading

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This one is for you P

I’m having those thoughts again. Sad, lonely, empty heart, thoughts. Sad that he wasn’t the person for me. What I needed was consistency and daily connection. It was simple, I needed daily connection. When I finally understood he couldn’t give … Continue reading

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InstaPain

In modern times like these, our wolds are so converging, so connected, so easy to feel pain. He posted a picture, of a picture, of a girl in Mykonos, with the caption: “I met the most beautiful girl in the … Continue reading

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Does anyone else track dates?

On July 4, 2018, I lost my best friend. I made a decision that did not feel like it was me making it; I made the decision to stop. It was a hard time. Truely difficult. I had built this … Continue reading

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I smelled like him, breeze, fog and disgust

It’s time. My mouth smelled like him. It wasn’t sexy or nostalgic or endearing this time. I left in the morning, sad that I had to feel what I did in order to understand it was time to end things. … Continue reading

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I really don’t want to put you on here

I tried to tell him we needed to stop. We needed to break up. I tried to tell him, “I’m in my thirties, we can’t keep acting like teenagers. Jumping into bed at all hours of the day. Really, we … Continue reading

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In his heart

“Say you love me.” “What?” “Just say you love me, I know you won’t mean it, I just want to hear you say it to me.” My heart broke exponentially, my voice cracked, “I love feeling you…” I stopped and … Continue reading

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Wanna go away with me baby?

“I can’t come with you to Vegas,” she said, matter of fact. “Baby, why? Please.” He reached out for her hand, eyes somber, yet like his usual self, glimmering and hopeful. “Because every time I go, I make out with … Continue reading

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Breaking up with your ex

He called me after eight months, nothing for eight months. He said his feelings for me are still the same, reminding me that I’m “v cute.” He said he needed the time. That he’s changed, now a little better than … Continue reading

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Middle Eastern taboo

It was crystal Clear; Like the Boston bay out my window. Blue, serene and never ending. You made your mind up about me Stereotypes and preconceived notions. Funny how I judged you so positively. Who knew you’d switch once you heard the … Continue reading

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Whilst you were sleeping

I looked up at his face whilst he was sleeping. I kept my eyes on him and I knew I’d fallen for him already. He had the most perfect jawline, protruding cheekbones, a little stubble covering it all. I ran my … Continue reading

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WYMM ?

“That’s a real serious question, it would shock anyone into silence. What did you expect him to say?” “But is it? Was it that shocking in our circumstance? He knew I fucking adored him, he knew I would do anything for … Continue reading

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I loved you more than I can love

I was born to be with you. in between sheets of calm and understanding, on the floor of passion and longing, against the wall of society and hatred, In any version of reality, I am my best when I am … Continue reading

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Like the legend of the pheonix / All ends with beginnings

Hamad was somewhat typical in his behaviours. Not so surprisingly, he had trouble expressing himself eloquently, and as per usual he preferred humour and over the dinner table conversations. But if she had heard him right, what he said this … Continue reading

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My imagination is what fuels me and f***s me

Somedays I’m genuinly really happy, I start to look for things to confirm why I should be happy. But then, out of the blue, I notice something that could potentially be heartbreaking. I keep looking until I find it – … Continue reading

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Yes, I’ve passed my mid 20s

“I am older and wiser.” She said, flipping her hair as if the statement required any more theatrics. “Ah please do tell. You didn’t slip and fall into his bed for a change?” I rolled my eyes, knowing her sprout … Continue reading

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