Tag Archives: thoughts

Never us against the world

Nothing could save us. Telephone calls, good mornings texts, multiple sunshine emojis, look into his eyes, back to back late night runs. We built too much distance between us. After so many nights away, so many conversations retained, Work trips, … Continue reading

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In his book …

I read the chapter in his book about him falling in love with a beautiful Tibetan-Indian. About their passionate love making. About his weaknesses and vulnerabilities for her. Unlike all the other chapters, this was very well written. It felt … Continue reading

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Ambition Baby

I like him, on paper, his profile, everything people said about him. Especially because he has that face that will grow old so handsome. But of course we were missing something. We began to lack something. I think what it … Continue reading

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Be Brave.

I am so scared of tomorrow, so scared of the work that I need to put in to get to my dreams.  Or what if all that work means nothing, gets me nowhere. How can I fall asleep knowing I … Continue reading

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Round 29

Loneliness is a fucking bitch. Miss Mess xoxo

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here, take my number

“How was drinks yesterday? Hold up, what is it you’re looking so anxious about now?” “I’m just worried I’m gonna mess this up. I’m gonna do something he doesn’t like, and he’ll hear about it and he won’t stay.” “Do you … Continue reading

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We broke up.

“… And he was so harsh.” “People always say mean things when they’re fighting. That’s normal.” “I don’t. And I want someone who’s more compassionate, even when he’s angry. You know, so he would still walk me to my car, … Continue reading

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What are you scared of?

I’m scared of two things: permanence and failure. That permanent, final, future choice. Because what if I feel trapped, with no way out. What if I no longer have control. What if I wake up tomorrow and the only way … Continue reading

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Breaking up with your ex

He called me after eight months, nothing for eight months. He said his feelings for me are still the same, reminding me that I’m “v cute.” He said he needed the time. That he’s changed, now a little better than … Continue reading

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Lonely Planet

Here, hold on to my hands. Do you remember me? Trust me You can follow me I will always keep the lonely parts outside of you. Miss Mess xoxo

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Whilst you were sleeping

I looked up at his face whilst he was sleeping. I kept my eyes on him and I knew I’d fallen for him already. He had the most perfect jawline, protruding cheekbones, a little stubble covering it all. I ran my … Continue reading

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Society presumes that women are disadvantaged

“One is not born, but rather becomes, a woman” – Simone de Beauvoir I used to ask myself, what is wrong with her? Why does she fall for the assholes; the cowards; the immature kids. There must be something wrong in … Continue reading

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I have always hated your world.

You think I’ve forgiven you? I have not, not even close. I want you to feel real heartbreak and endlessly cry because of it. Sob, scrub your tears and punch the wall. Once, and then a second time, because the … Continue reading

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Your life for mine

I made a promise today – 6.12am. Yup, third time’s the charm. Miss Mess xoxo

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Old feelings die hard

Being over consumed with anxiety is kind of familiar, unsettling, but common. I think most of us, have some event, that makes us stiff and wary. You are, my event. As if it’s a revelation, I pause my mind and … Continue reading

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Humans are the epitome of their own destruction

i love time and the power and education it gives you. i love it. i was brought up so guarded and so naive, i appreciate and am thankful that i was. i built a rock that inside homes a fluttering butterfly, with … Continue reading

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After all, this war is all that we are

My mind roams a surrendered battlefield . 5 days a week I deliberate over having you in my life // keeping you a phone call away // caring for you as a ‘friend’. As soon as I stamp my heel … Continue reading

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Do not say “I’m fine” when you are clearly not

And so the fourth day passed. No news, no words, absolutely nothing from him. There I was bundled in a corner shivering, shaking, hiccupping off my high. And he was -.- It was a stark realisation. I didn’t want to be … Continue reading

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Got my bad baby by my heavenly side

“You think there’s nobody here for you?” “No.” “How are you so sure.” “I am.” “Aren’t you closing yourself off to experiences, things, reaching your full potential on your own.” “I’m sure. But there is something about him, and maybe … Continue reading

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About an old friend

You are in a different world than us; it is neither right nor wrong, good nor bad. It is your reality, perplexed, unconventional, seminal, from our own. Even if we’re not in it, we walk side by side – I … Continue reading

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